Tuesday, December 29, 2009

SLOW DOWN


Have you ever notice that most people hurry through life, never taking the time to slow down. I often wonder why we live at such a hectic pace. Life was never meant to be a mad dash. God created us to enjoy Him and to enjoy life. As you often here stop and smell the roses. But somehow life has gotten out of control as the pace of life has us all running so fast that we forget to live life, we only survive it. If you have ever read the Biblical account of creation you know that God created the world and all that's in it in six day. But on the seventh day God rested. I often ask myself why did God need to rest? Was he tried, did he work to hard. No I think God rested to set an example for us. God also tell us to rest, to slow down, to take a sabbath. The word Sabbath means "to catch one's breath" In his Book Wild Goose Chase Mark Batterson writes "A weekly Sabbath is the way our spirits catch up with our bodies. And if we don't slow down, we eventually hit a point of diminishing returns, where more is less and less is more. It's counter intuitive, but the way you speed up is by slowing down." Life is hard and the pace can be difficult but we must all learn to slow down and to "Be Still And Know That God Is God."

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Trying to Find God


It's had to discern God's presence in the busyness of life. Even when I try to do all the right things, such as reading my Bible, praying and going to church. Yes God's presence seem to escape me, and it seems as if God is elusive not wanting to be found. Can it be that I missing something? Am I doing something wrong? should I add something else to my list so that God will hear me? The more I think about it maybe I'm trying to give God a list of things when all he ever wanted was me. I mean my heart, maybe His plan was for me to fall in love with Him, not just a list of things I do for Him, but a heart that loves Him and wants to spend time with Him. Wants to get to know Him, and hear from Him. A heart that seeks him with passion and with intensity. Is it only there that we can find Him?Is it only there that we come to understand that God is a God of deep relationships, a God of passion and love. How is it that I ever thought I could find Him, by keeping a list of do's and dont's. I think that today I will give my heart to Him and then I will wait and be found by Him.

Monday, December 14, 2009

The Questions of the Heart


In the end, science does not provide the answers most of us require. Its story of our origins and our end is, to say the least, unsatisfactory. To the question, “how did it all begin?", science answers "Probably by an accident." To the question how will it all end?" science answers "Probably by an accident." And to many people the accidental life is not worth living" Neil Postman

So Why do we try so hard to find answers to the questions of Life? What is it that drives us? what is it that we so desperately want to know? We want to know that we matter and that we have a purpose. We what to know there is more to life that just 70 or 80 years, and if there is more, how do we find it? So God gave us the answers, but for most people God's message has not be accepted. I guess the concept of a loving, just God that set the standards for life is thought to be wrong. Many say that God need to do it the way that they think is should had been done. I guess they believe they should tell God how to operate, how to run things. And when God doesn't they decide that he is no longer God. Well Im glad that God is God and that he has given me the answers to the questions of my heart. I don't think that I'm an accident and thankful that God has told me that I'm not. That he created me and that he love me and has a plan for my life. Im glad that he gave me the Bible so that I can know for sure whats happens after this life and how to spend my life with Him forever. John 20:31 says "But these things are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ the Son of God, and believing you may have life in his name." Yes i am thankful that God would care enough to answer the most important questions of my heart.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Delight In You


One of the great things about God is that he love us with a love that is real and unconditional. I have always found that to be astonishing. Why you the God of the universe care for me and more than care, take delight in me. Why would one such as he love one such as I. And no matter how hard i try to understand it, I am always left breathless. When I read Zephaniah 3:17 which states "The Lord you God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will takes great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you singing." I just sit back and think about why God why do you do it. You the one that is without beginning and without end. The one that need nothing to be complete. Why do you take delight in me, in us. And the only answer I can find is that you do it because you are a God of love. A God that cares so deeply for that you created, you wanted us to know it. So you just told us, so that way we would never have to wonder. So thank you for delighting in me, and help me to delight in you.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

O WOW


One of the best things in life is when you know someone that loves the simple things of life. A person that seems to have child like enjoyment of those things and at time just busts out in those (O Wow) statements. Well Josh is one of those people. He just has a way of making life simple and fun. He loves to just sit back and smile, laugh, and just not take life to serious. The smallest things seem to amaze him, and when that amazement comes, you hear him say O Wow. It is at these moments that I just laugh and I think that Jesus must smile at Josh and say I love it when he does that. You see I feel Josh has something that many people have lost, the simple enjoy of everyday life, a childlikeness that often times end up in verbal outburst of his pleasure at the goodness of the things of His God. I have come to realize that Josh has an uncanny ability to keep life simple, to keep God first, and not to get caught up in the craziness of life. I find myself just wanting at times to be more like Josh in these areas of my life. To just enjoy my God and have more O Wow moments, to laugh more, to slow down and not allow the craziness of life to drive me crazy. I believe that when we keep our eyes on Jesus we often have those O Wow times. We see that life is not to difficult for Him, that tomorrow will come, and that Jesus really is in control. We come to understand that Jesus brings calmness to our otherwise crazy lives and we can only say O Wow to how awesome our Jesus is. So thanks Josh for helping me see what at times life can make me forget. That it is Jesus that makes the O Wow moments possible.

Friday, November 13, 2009

The Practice of the Presence of God


" At any moment and in any circumstance, the soul that seeks God may find Him, and practice the presence of God" from the Book of the same name. So what does it mean to practice the presence of God? How do I get to do that and why would I want to do it. I often wonder what God is like and if he is anything like the God of the Bible then why would I not want to get to know Him better. Take for example the Bible says that God is a loving God, a just God, a God of peace, and of understanding. It goes on to say that He punishes the wicked, and will one day deal with all those who stand against himself God. So I get it people don't like it when anyone tells them that they are wrong or that they fall short of the Glory of God. And I get it that no one wants to be told that they are sinners, and I'm right there with you. I don't like that stuff either, but if that is the truth and there is a God that can save me from myself, well I want to get to know him. Because in the end I dont just want to be right, I worried about being right with God, if he is who he says he is. I would very much like to be in His presence, now and forever. So if that takes me admitting that I don't have all the answers, and I can do it without Him, well that's a small price to pay, when compared to spending the rest of my life with Him. Today is a good day to start practicing the Presence of God. John 3;16 is a really good place if you would like to start a relationship with the God of the universe.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled


Have you ever read the Gospel of John Chapter 13 verse 38 and chapter 14 verse 1


John 13:38-14:2

Jesus answered, "Die for me? I tell you the truth, Peter-before the rooster crows tomorrow morning you will deny three times that you even know me. "Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me.


Would you ever think that the verse telling of Peter's failure would be followed by one of the deepest comfort? But that's one thing that makes Jesus so awesome. He knew Peter's heart and that Peter's deepest desire was not to deny Him but that Peter wanted to be Jesus' boy, he wanted to be a hero of the faith. He knew that Peter one day would die for him. Yes Jesus knew things about Peter that Peter did not yet know about himself. He believed in Peter even when Peter did not believe in himself and even though Peter would deny Him Jesus knew that one day Peter would glorify him. So even though Peter would deny him, Jesus words of comfort would give Peter the strength he later needed to become all that God wanted him to be. You see we are sometimes much like Peter, we want to do great things for Jesus, but sometimes we mess up. when those times come remember that Jesus never gives up on you, he will bring you through the tough times, so let not your heart be troubled.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

A Sense of Destiny


When God told Abram to leave his country, his people, and his family and go to a land I will show you. I wonder what went though his mind. When God told him I will make you into a great nation, and I will bless you, what was Abram thinking. Was he thinking about his Destiny, that people would remember, and know his name for thousands of years to come. One of the things that happens when we become a Christian is that gain a sense of destiny, a sense of mission. After God placed his hand on Abraham (Genesis 12), he never looked at his life the same way. He said, I am special, and I have a purpose. All the nations of the world will be blessed in me, God has done this great time and he used me. Abraham was not being prideful, he had gained a sense of purpose, he came to realized his destiny. Today more than ever I feel we need to realize our purpose and our ability with the direction of God to understand our destiny. Jesus came so that we would understand why we where created and what the purpose of our lives are. Today is a good day to come to our senses and allow God to to do that which only He can do, give us purpose and a sense of DESTINY.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Sin the Unnatural Intruder

So many times we think of sin as be natural and normal. We quickly forget that God created the first man and women without sin, and we liveas if sin will always be a part of who we are. That forever we will live with this sickness, and that there is no cure. Below is a quote helps us see sin for what it is.
The great truth of Christianity, the great truth of Christ, is that sin in unnatural and it has no business in a human life. The birth of Christ proclaimed that in one tone: His cross proclaimed it in another! And that which is unnatural is not by necessity permanent. The struggle of all nature is against the unnatural, to dislodge it and cast it out. That struggle pervades the world. It’s is going on in every clod of earth, in every tree, in every star, and in every soul of man. Intensely sensitive to feel the presence of evil as never felt before, the Christian instantly and intensely knows that evil is a stranger and an intruder in his life. The wonder in not that it should someday be cast out: the wonder is that it should ever have come in”.(Phillips Brooks)
We are well to remember that the intruder has been dealt with and defeated by Jesus Christ. But for us we must deal with it by accepting Christ gift of freedom. But that is only the start; we must then daily choose to live free from the effects of sin, to choose the things of God and not the things of sin. Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. My prayer for you is that today you will choose to live in freedom.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Changing our Perspective


I have often found in my own life that it is most difficult to see things from God's point of view, when I'm looking at it from my perspective. When I let the troubles, the problems, the difficulties, the negative emotions of life tell me how i should interpret the goodness and the greatness of my God. Often times what I need is a a change of perspective. In his book Wild Goose Chase, Mark Batterson states " here the bottom line where you a geographically affect where you are spiritually" what I think he means is that sometimes you need to change something in your life, so that you can see things from another point of view. And I found that to be really true in my own life. I just spent a few weeks in Alaska, and I was taken back by the Majesty of my God, and then I asks my self why was God different in Alaska then back in Ohio, no but the change of location, and the change of the pace of my life, allowed me to see just how awesome my God is. as Mark Batterson puts it,
(change of place+change of pace=change of perspective) so today if you need to change your perspective, go somewhere, take a long drive to a quite place, go sit by the lake or ocean, build a fire in your back yard, walk to work, bike to work. Just do something different and see if your perspective changes.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Thankful


Today I had the opportunity to serve at the Food Self a ministry of Mountain View Church in Anchorage Alaska, and today made me remember that people are so precious. The Food Self gives out food to people in need, and today those people gave me more than I could have ever given them. I found myself at one point alone sitting on the steps just praying and thanking God for being able to serve. I really just want to cry I was so grateful to my God, and I thought for a moment that even though this Life is hard for these people, God has a better eternity for all who trust in Him. Yes today I came to understand that this life no matter how hard, that God has something better in store fo us. Today I was thankful I saw people as God sees us and I thanked Him that this world is not our Home.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Living outside of the Box

One thing I have come to understand is this, If I am going to follow JESUS with my whole heart, I must often times reject what the majority often says and compare all aspect of my life to Scripture. I'm not saying that I always do it but it must become my goal, for only then will I come to desire God enough that everything else is second to Him. In his book Crazy Love (Francis Chan) quotes 'I quickly found that the American church is a difficult place to fit in if you want to live out New Testament Christianity. The goals of American Christianity are often a nice marriage, children who don't swear, and a good church attendance. Taking the words of Christ literally and seriously is rarely considered. That's for the "radicals" who are "unbalanced" and who go "overboard." Most of us want a balanced life that we can control, that is safe, and that does not involve suffering." And the more I read Scripture the more I feel that God demands that I give up control of my life to Him, and only then can I become the person that I want to be. A Disciple of Jesus Christ, for Jesus call us to follow him not to lead the way. Its time that we Christians give up this ideal that we can do it our way, God will never be ok with that, because he is God and he has created us to follow Him.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

What do you want Jesus to do for you

As i was reading Luke chapter 18 I was taken back by the encounter that Jesus had with the blind beggar. You see the beggar was a man the had never saw Jesus but believed that Jesus could make a difference in his Life. So once he got Jesus attention, Jesus asked him the questions "what do you want me to do for you" and the beggar responded Lord I want to see. A simple question I don't think so, you see this beggar knew that he needed a miracle so when he said Lord I want to see, what he was saying is Jesus I believe that you are the messiah and If you will have mercy on me I will follow you always. So Jesus said to him, " receive your sight, your faith has healed you" And that's whats takes me back, how Jesus made the man ask for want he needed. And only when he ask did Jesus do anything. I realizes that Jesus does not beg us to come to him, but responds to us when we finally come to the realization that we need him and that he is the only one that can save us. Yes the questions what do you want me to do for you is one we need to here and be ready to answer.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Wild Goose Chase

I have been reading a book by Mark Batterson, called (Wild Goose Chase) the book is about chasing after the Spirit of God. The main point is that when we follow after God, we are never sure where He will lead us, but it will be the best adventure of our lives. And I think that so many people out there are looking for a life of adventure. but adventure that changes the world for the better. Adventure that impacts the lives of people and improves their lives. Now i believe that only God can give you the adventure of this kind. The life that we all deeply desire, that has purpose and has meaning can only be found when we chase after the God who made us, for any other chase will leave us short or our full potential. So today chase after God and enjoy the adventure of a lifetime.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Encouragement

As I sit here reading my Bible I realized that people love to be encouraged. As Paul wrote in 1st Thessalonians chapter 1 verse 2 and 3 (We always thank God for all of you, mentioning you in our prayers We continually remember before our God and or Father your work produced by faith, your labor prompted by love, and your endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.) Yes I am convinced that if people would just look for way to encouraged one another, life would be a little bit better for all. I know that words have the power to destroy, but they also have the power to build and to heal. So today is a good day to bring healing and hope to anyone that might need it. You never know what you can do for someone just by speaking a word of encouragement. Take the time to love someone enough to bring them hope today.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Road Trip

Today is one of those days that I just want to take off and drive. Just hop in a car and go on a long road trip, not even knowing where but just heading somewhere. To go on an adventure, to see the the wonders of God by getting away slowing down and taking it all in. The Grand Canyon, the Rockies Mountains, the Great Lakes, and so on. I would call it a road trip to nowhere. Just to love life and meet people, and to reconnect to my God. I starting to think that we see God the best when we slow down and really look for Him, even though he is always right there we often can't see him, until we slow down. So I think I will take a road trip to nowhere, and see my God though the beauty of His Nature and Hie people.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

A Life Lived Well

Today I find myself thinking much about life. I ask myself what does it mean to live well and to love well. What is the meaning of life, and why do I find myself always asking if I am living and loving well. For so many it is the questions of life that we find so hard to answers. Some turn to God, or that which they believe to be god for the answers. Others turn to, people, or nature, or philosophy, while others turn to science, and I could go on and on and on. But it is the questions of life that calls them. Deep down inside we want to know why we are here, what is our purpose and what happens next. And today these same questions invade my mind. I want to know if God is pleased with me? I want to know if I have loved others well and if I am living my life well. I find myself praying to God and asking Him to help me make a difference in the lives of others. To bring a smile to someones face. To make someones life better today. To give me the ability to give of all I have to enhance the lives of another. Today I choose to live my life in a way that pleases God and helps others, so today I feel I have lived well.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Family

Yesterday I had the opportunity to speak at my brother-in-laws church and many of my family and extended family were there. It’s funny even though I speak often very rarely do I get a chance to go back home and see my family. Now this was a special occasion it was their third year pastoring in his church but this story is more about my sister Ella his wife. What you may not know is that I'm from a large family of 11 kids and Ella has been my strongest support in my Christian journey since the death of my mom many years ago. Three years ago Ella found out her liver was failing and was placed on a donor waiting list. After numerous treatments and many hospital stays Ella's liver was finally giving up, but during this period of time her love for God, her faith in God and her love for her family is what kept her strength. I remember one late night phone call when she was sharing with me her thoughts and feelings about dying and how she kept saying remember when mom would say "The darkest just before the storm and the hardest fight is just to keep holding on". Or remember when mom used to say "God may not come when you want Him but He's right on time". It was at that moment I realized how dear my family was to me. It was at that moment that the legacy that my mom has left in her children. After speaking my other sister Brenda got up to give closing remarks and during her remarks she turned to me and said “little brother I just want you to know mom would be proud”. Then my nephews comment to the congregation about the impact the family has had on his life and that is why he is in love with Jesus today and I guess what I’m really trying to say is that family matters. You see, it is family that knows you, where you have come from and where you have been. And its family that sticks behind you through the hard times and all life brings. And as I sat there and saw my family and heard the words they were saying to the rest of the congregation, even though there have been many ups and down and difficult times my family has always been and will always be there for me.

Friday, June 19, 2009

From My Heart

As I sit here today, my heart is heavy. Over the past few weeks I have been somewhat sad. It is the kind of sadness that the bible calls sadness of the heart. Even this morning I was reading an article that stated (World hunger reaches the 1 billion people mark.) Then I was reading in the Bible from the book of Revelation chapter 2 and I was taken aback by how God spoke of the people. How God stated that he had things against them. How they had lost their first love. How we as people often turn from good to our own selfishness. I’m sad when I realize that more often than not I worry about myself but care little for what others are going through. I find myself asking why do we have so much. But give so little? Over the past few weeks I have had an overwhelming feeling that we as people are not becoming better but more self-centered. But it is now more than ever people need to have hope, and we that are the most privileged should do all we can to help those who are not. My heart also tells me that people not only need their physically needs met, but also their spiritual needs as well. I can only pray that this sadness in my heart will cause me to do what I can with what I have, for the good of those that God has given me a heart for.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

WHY

I often find myself asking the question, Why! Why did that happen , Why did that person die, Why did I not see it coming? Why do good things happen to bad people? Why did God not interven? Why is life so unfair? Yes I ask why all the time and most of the time I don't care about the answers, I want my pain to go away or I want to be justifed in my thinking. You see I think deep down inside, I know what's best in most situations, and I want to make sure God understands that. I want Him to say, your right Don that is what I was thinking. I want things to work out how I plan, and I have little time to deal with a God who does not see things as I do. Well if you really think about it, you would no doubt tell me to wake up. You might say how arrogant of me to think I have all the answers. That I know what's right all the time. And there is the problem, I think I can question the God who made it all. I should tell Him what is best, or how life should be run. But if there is a God who is truly God why would he need anyone to tell how to do things. If your like me the word God carries a certian meaning or connotation to it. It means that He (GOD) is great not me and that Gives Him the right to be in charge. He welcomes my questions, but not my challenges to who He is.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

The Journey Of Desire

In his book The Journey of Desire, John Eldredge writes, "We all share the same dilemma- we long for life and we're not sure where to find it. We wonder if we ever do find it, can we make it last?... Our days come to us as riddle, and the answers aren't handed out with our birth certificates. We must journey to find the life we prize. And the guide we have been given is the desire set deep within, the desire we often overlook or mistake for something else or even choose to ignore." Yes the desire for meaning and purpose. We want so bad to know why we are here, why we were created. We desire to find the source of it all. Who or what can help us to know?, that is what we find ourselves constantly asking. But often times questions of the heart require a true search of the soul. They often require a faith that often seems to conflict with what we know. They often require us to trust in the one who created us all. For only the one who created us can fully know us and our purpose. So if your Journey has seemed to have led you to a question of faith and about God. It might be a good time to ask Him if He has the answers you have been looking for. After all He might be the one thing you have desired.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Questions

As I think about my life and this Journey that I have been on, I realize that my life has been series of questions and seeking answers for those questions. As I talk with others I find this pattern is repeated in their life. There are questions about relationships, and money. Questions about the future and the past. Questions about injustice, about pain and suffering. There are questions about fear and about hope. Questions about life and death. And questions about God. And I find that the questions about God brings about the most difficult searching. The most gut reaching introspection. The questions about God brings about intense dialog and debate. But it's the questions about God that will not let me rest, until I have found the answers. I wanted to know if there was a God. And I wanted to know if this God cared for me. I wanted to know how I could find Him and how I could talk to him if He was there. I wanted to know His name and why He created me. I wanted to know what happens to me when I die. I wanted to know if I would be with Him then. Yes so many questions about God and for me I could not rest until I started to get the answers to some of these questions. If your anything like me, you have many of the same questions. Don't just push them aside, for they will return. Seek out God and may I suggest that you start with asking Him to reveal himself to you. In the Bible is a book called John. Go to chapter 20 verse 31 and just read it. I found that was a great place for me to start my search for this God.

Friday, May 8, 2009

Remedy

As I sit here at O’Hare airport in Chicago, listening to David Crowder (song remedy) it suddenly hit me. Jesus came as the Remedy for us. Yes a remedy to make us whole again. Sin has taken an incomprehensible toll on all of us. We have been affected in every area of life, our relationship with God and others, our hope for the future, our physical bodies, and our view of life. And only Jesus can cure all those things. He alone can give us right standing with God, and enough love to care for others with real unselfish love. He can restore our hope in the future because he holds the future in his control. He alone can bring complete healing to broken bodies and minds. And only through His eyes can we see the world as it should be seen. Yes as the song states “He is the one who has saved us, He is the one who forgave us, He is the one who has come and is coming again he is the Remedy“ So if you feel the need to be made whole, I invite you to turn to Him, the Remedy.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Good Things

Have you noticed that the world seems to overlook the good things of Life. Yes, I know that right now things look really bad, the economy, Swine Flu, wars everywhere. So where are the good things? Well today I realized that the good things happen when people set out to do them. Often time when I'm in a store I make a point to say something kind or nice to someone and it never fails to see the surprised look on the persons face. Sometimes it's just a smile, often times it's a thank you, and even sometimes a complete change of attitude. And if I have the ability with just a kind word to do a good thing, and make others day a little better. What would happen if we trusted in a God that has the ability to do really good things. Things like change someones life. Change hate to love and change pain to joy. Yes Good things happen when we give a good God permission to work in our lives. Now I'm not talking about the good things like money or success , I'm talking about the really good things. Things that will last for eternity, things that are truly good and make a difference in the hearts of people and becaues of that make the wrold a better place. Because people would be truly better people. And thats a really Good Thing.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Faith

Why is it so hard for people to believe in God, or to see how He is working in their life and in their world. Well I think it often comes down to having Faith. You see Faith is that thing that tells you in your gut when something is real or true, even when you can't see it. I know that faith is a word that so many in the world think is foolish. And often time those who confess their faith are thought of as weak, stupid, or foolish. But when you really think of it, most people have faith in something. Take for example (people have faith in themselves) They believe if they work hard and do the right things that they will be rewarded for it. But how do they know for certain, they don't, they just have faith that it is true. Some people have faith that this life is all there is. Now there no way to know that for sure, but they have faith that their belief is true and they need no evidences to prove it. So faith in a God that is good and has created all things should not seem that unreasonable, even in a world that swears that faith is foolish. But a world that has faith in so many things, as long as those things do not include a good, loving, compassionate God

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Teach us to Pray

Today as I was reading ( LUKE chapter 11) I was surprised by the question that the disciples ask Jesus. Lord teach us to pray, just as John taught his disciples? You see I have read this chapter many times. But today that question that the disciples ask Jesus hit me hard. You see in my life I have never asked Jesus to teach me how to pray. Now I often pray to God in the name of Jesus. But I don't ever remember asking Jesus to teach me How to pray. So today I asked Jesus to teach me something that I thought i could do without him. And today my prayers where more alive, and I felt I prayed the prayers that God would have me pray. Not just random prayers, but prayers from my God. So if you have never asked Jesus to teach you how to pray, today is a very goodday to start.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Pressing On

I wrote this poem during a hard time in my life, a time i really needed hope. It was during this hard time that God really spoke to me. And now I share it with those who read this blog.

Pressing On

Do you ever get tired of this fight that we’re in
Do you ever just once want a victory to win
Will you press any harder, will you give any more
Does your soul now feel empty, is your heart now not sure.

Do you feel now abandoned, all alone once again
Can you lean on your own self can you lean on a friend
I have been there right with you, does God even care
I have questioned God’s love, I have questioned my prayer.

Can I fight without ceasing, can I trust and obey
In a God who is lifeless who has left me this day
Press on they all tell me, don’t you ever give in.
Don’t you lose what you fought for, don’t you do it my friend.

Press on they all tell me when I’m feeling this way
Not one of them hears me, can’t they hear what I say
I know not how to go on, I know not how to fight
I have lost all my courage, I have lost all my might.

Press on, press on, these words ring in my ears
I try to suppress them, but they have awakened my fears
“Go away! Go away!” my heart and soul cries
Can I look to the heavens can I look to the skies.

Would one dare try to tell me this lament is unreal
Would one care to show me how my heart dares to feel
Till this soul within which no longer gives
Heal this heart that keeps me but no longer lives.

I have searched every corner I have sought every cure
I have given my all I have learned to endure
I have tried with all effort to understand it all
I have given my best on God I now call.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Today

As I got up this morning, I had a feeling that God loved me. Now I'm not sure why and I'm not sure how. But something inside me just felt that I was loved by the God of the universe. So I start my day thinking why does God care so much for me, and why do I feel Him so much today. I am coming to believe that God loves always but chooses to remind me in very special ways when I need it most. And this morning was a good day to be reminded. I'm sure some of you have had the same type of experiences, and I just wanted to say enjoy it, think about it, and ask yourself why? Why would God, love me so much that He would wake me up and whisper in my SOUL I love you? Because He does and yes He loves you the same way.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Journey of Discovery

I often sit and wonder how one man who lived over two thousand years ago still demands so much attention. How can this Jesus, inspire such deep love and commitment's from some, and such hate and anger from others. Why are so many conversations centered around him and his teaching. There are so many questions that I have about this Jesus. What does it mean to follow him. How do I fit into his plan, or do I fit into his plan. If he is real why so much heartache and pain in my life, my world, my friends. What does he look like, and how do I know he is concerned with the here and now. I invite you to join me on my journey of discovery of this Jesus, and what Jesus looks like.