Friday, September 26, 2014



Demonic or evil or none of the two
Would you chose to be mad, would you chose to be you
Freedom or captive or a state in between
A world of illusion sewn up in a dream.

Reality as we see it, only controls and confines
The ability to be free the ability of one’s mind
Are we victors in madness such a lovely sound?
Are we losers in sanity held by chains to the ground?

Is madness a play or just a game
No victor to lose or one to claim
Oh, help me oh help me this is my cry
Oh madness I’m searching where does your lot lie.

My eyes shall be opened I will no longer play
Madman your game must end on this day
Am I free from this struggle I confess not to know?
But Madman your grip you now must let go.

For the freedom I found once in your thoughts
I no longer feel that freedom that I ought.
In reality I feel more controlled by your crime
To rob me of myself and to lock out my mind.

Madman how could you, could one be so unkind
To hide your hypocrisy to validate your crime
Madman, O Madman, you have stolen from me
The joy and the laughter that alone can set me free.

Goodbye to you Madman goodbye to your shame
I no longer desire to remain in your name.
You no longer can control me with freedom as your lie
For my wings have been opened I’m ready to fly.

So goodbye to you Madman goodbye to you again
For although you have deceived me you have been my friend.
I will not forget you, nor the lesson I’ve learned
You have shown me that freedom is not found, but is earned.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Where My Heart Wants To Go!

As I sit here, my heart is unsure of what it feels. I have come to find that lately that my Heart is longing. Longing for Christ and the peace that only He can bring. Life has a way of beating you down, making you feel alone, helpless and defeated.
When I was younger the pleasures of this world, both good and sinful, would be my escape from this place. But now I find no peace in those escapes. I often just want to be at peace and free from the emptiness of this world.
My heart wants to be with Christ. I can’t even put it into words the sense of peace I find in the person of Christ. The more I come to understand what He has done for me, what He is doing in me and what it will be like when I am with Him. I long for His presence. I don’t long to die, I just long for the peace and contentment that can only be found in Jesus Christ.
The Apostle Paul stated in Philippians 1:21-23, “For me to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far.” Now don’t get me wrong, I am nowhere near the man that Paul was. I cannot begin to compare my walk with Christ to how close Paul walked with Christ.
I’m simply saying that I have a longing in my heart that only Jesus Christ can satisfy. I don’t always have that longing, and I pray I would love Christ as much as Paul loved Him. I pray that I would hate sin as the Apostle Paul hated sin.
I’m far from the man that Paul was, but I do know I have a longing to be in the presence of Christ, much more than I have before. It is the place…. Where My Heart Want’s To Go!